一场出逃的旅行：论许通元小说 〈我的老师是恐怖分子〉中的情动体验

A Journey of Escape: A Study of Affective Experience in Xu Tongyuan's Short Story My Teacher Is A Terrorist

Abstract

马来西亚华人作家许通元（1974-），积极投身于马华小说创作与同性性别研 究，其小说〈我的老师是恐怖分子〉是颇具代表性的马华同性爱小说，收录在短 篇小说集《我的老师是恐怖分子》中。本文以此小说为主要研究文本，适当结合 其他马华小说中的同性爱情节，以情动体验为研究视角，从“羞耻”与空间、情 感隔离与反“羞耻”、情感修复与身份缺失等三个方面探讨情动体验与同性恋者身 份、书写策略的关系，以此研究马华小说中同性恋者的自我身份认同问题。情动 体验不仅为逃离“正典”提供可能，也为同性恋群体的自我身份认同提供情感关 怀，同时为性别书写与阅读提供思考策略。

关键词：马华同性爱小说，许通元，我的老师是恐怖分子，情动体验，自我身份 认同

Xu Tongyuan (1974-), a Malaysian Chinese writer actively engaged in Malaysian 
Chinese fiction and research on homosexuality, has authored a representative Malaysian Chinese homosexual short story My Teacher is a Terrorist, which is included in the collection of short stories under the same title. This paper takes this short story as the main research text, appropriately supplemented by homosexual plots in other Malaysian Chinese short story. Taking affective experience as the research perspective, exploring the relationship between affective experience and the self-identity of homosexuals, as well as the writing strategy, from three aspects: shame and space, affective isolation and anti
shame, affective repair and identity loss, so as to study the problem of self-identity recognition of homosexuals in Malaysian Chinese short stories. Affective experience not only provides a possibility for escaping from the canon, but also provides affective care for the self-identity recognition of the homosexual community, and at the same time, provides a thinking strategy for the writing and reading of homosexuality. 

Keywords: Malaysian Chinese homosexual short story, Xu Tongyuan, My Teacher Is A Terrorist, affective experience, self-identity recognition